One for sadness

It's because there's so much associated with them, I think.

But it's weird how

I've lived almost twenty one years

and in all that time I never really saw

how beautiful

magpies are.

Drag

this will be painful.

but the purges have been worse than this, always worse,

and you've survived them.

this time, unlike others

it is a conscious choice.

tomorrow is composed of maybes.

September

Evades your misconceptions and flees earthly blight,

Your ailment

Your cholera.

Not conventional, nor chic,

that would be too easy.

Is it ever easy?

Don't answer that.

Intolerable stupidity and

righteous disappointment do battle

for thrones

of nearly gold.

Animal

Takes the time away from other thoughts

and intrudes on you from night time.

Did you forget?

Subconscious is always awake. Always thinking.

Always making connections and taking away from the sane self.

It's silent.

But now it jabbers excitedly.

And you realise

That thing that's been bothering you isn't cumbersome or negative.

It's not apathy

to be in love with what you are

not what you should be.

remember

you heard regina spektor in a dream once.

Hey

The future is coming.
You're brave and strong.
The future is endless.
Go climb a tree.
The future is tomorrow.
Stop thinking so hard about what that means.
The future is tiny compared to now.
Enjoy this second, you won't get one like it again.
The future is composed of existences.
Is yours worth living for?
The future is a bloodless battle.
Draw your sword.
The future is an adventure

What the fuck are you waiting for?

To Be Honest...

the feeling has become so normal
i have been forgetting it's there.